Today's the last day of me waking up whenever i please, eating and doing whenever, wherever and whatever i want..
and i'm celebrating it with Durian - the King of Fruits!
oh du-du-durian!
nom nom disgusting foul smelling durian.. nom nom nom.. malaysians find it smells and tastes like heaven! I finished this whole box and now the whole condo smells like garbage. *excuse my gross attempt in describing this wonderful fruit...
I was halfway through the dream when i woke up, but i forced myself to go back to sleep to see what would happen. And the dream continued.
The dream is now all fuzzy already, but i remember mr C bringing me to the cheap hotel room where he did his disgusting act and I forced him to tell me everything that happened. From beginning to end. I was sitting on the bed of the hotel room crying (in the dream) when i woke up, and when i got back to the dream, Mr C was defending / justifying himself like:
"Why are you so sad, it meant nothing!"
"I still love you, it was purely physical with her! I'm sorry but all the other guys were doing it too."
"I really don't understand why you're so sad, I still love you and am still with you right .."
writing this all down now makes me feel like punching him again...!!
AFter breaking up with him (in the dream), i woke up the second time and called Mr C (who was at work) straight away to ask why he cheated on me. and when we met up for lunch later, i punched him. HAHAHA.
Of course, dreams don't mean anything , unless i'm psychic...????!!
Mr C's response is:
"I've only been cheating on you with diablo III.."
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special update:
*C's laptop just crashed = say byebye to diablo
that's what you get when you cheat on your girlfriend muahahaha!
Last Sunday, I signed myself up to teach some kids english at a community centre. It's sort of like a baptist centre where people come to have free food every Sunday (like soup kitchen la), and families who cannot afford tuition send their kids here for english tuition.
Having been on a career break for so long and forced to think about passions in life, I remember my happier moments:
1. being able to get into the advisory team where I was able to have a more planning and seeing things from a big picture role
2. CSR project where we brought orphans from several homes for a day out into our office. The main purpose of that project is to introduce the workplace and conduct talks so as to plant hope and motivation into these kids and also to put them in touch with the scholarship/helpline etc organisations.
Referring to moment #2, to be honest, I didn't really participate much during the planning stage because:
- I was in the midst of a very busy time (but then again i was always busy heh)
- this project contributed nothing to our KPI
- some colleagues were getting shit left right centre for apparently spending 'more time' on this project than work.
Come to think of it, the team did a remarkable job in planning and politicking. So in the end I was only in charge of door gifts and the more specific role was to get people to sponsor these door gifts - i was very lucky and managed to get everything sorted out within 2 days. So the day came where the orphans were welcomed into the office. I didn't want to go at first, being it was a Saturday and I treasure my sleep on weekends more than anything. But I went, and that sparked the beginning of my interest in stuff like this lor.
Some conversations:
Me: "So what do you want to be when you grow up?"
Kid 1: "erm.. Accountant..?"
Me: "Oh kid, trust me, you do not want to be an accountant.." and told him everything bad about the accounting profession.. yea yea bad accountant watever
Me: "So looking at your hobbies, you like to talk and read.. oh and you're really good in english.. what do you want to be when you grow up?" (hoping to hear the answer lawyer)
Indian Kid 2 grinning: "Accountant!"
Me: "Whyyyyy?"
Kid 2 doesnt answer..
Me: "Ok erm, do you know what a lawyer is..?"
Kid 2 shakes head..
I chuckle at myself for expecting a 14 year old kid to know what a lawyer is before proceeding to tell him (actually should they be knowing what a lawyer is ar?)
In the end, ALL the kids wanted to be accountants... -.-
So back to my kid teaching activity last sunday, we were to read Peter and Jane to kids. The kid I was assigned to was 12 years old and she couldn't read really basic words like where, there, with.. etc. Le sigh. I spent 1 and half hours going through 2 pages of Peter and Jane with her, it really wasn't enough. Maybe we should prolong the studying hours hmm.. She was willing to learn though. I'm not sure what to do if she rejected me. then i'd feel really sad :( But, so far it has been smooth and personally rewarding , i hope i'll still have time for it once i start work! *fingers crossed*
oh want to share something! :) enjoy
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oh oh, will be going to singapore to see Lady GAGA in the flesh this weekend!! ah nong and I will be in the moshpit dancing until our legs break! (chinese saying for really tired legs). spent 2 days shopping in sg wang to find the right outfit for the concert. In the end gave up cause too time consuming and dangerous - 4 floors with 10 little boutiques on each floor all selling clothes for RM25!!! I ended up buying bags of unrelated stuff.. and shopping alone is really sien! *misses sisters* I can foresee myself buying clothes for the kids I work with soon,, all the clothes are so colourful and pwetty!
*He ate my heart, he ay-ay-ay-ate my heart!*johnnywalker eyes*bubble dreams*
sorry for the lack of updates. Have been busy getting ready and attending interviews.. and the outcome:
"I FINALLY CAN HAS A JOBz!!" :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
It is very exciting and allows for substantial growth opportunities (which is exactly what i want because i'm greedy and realistically ambitious) and so much more! yay!! oh and i have a fantastic BOSS, something i lacked back in the day *ahem .. seriously, i am so lucky!
Looking back on these 2 years, I can finally see purpose!! *teary eyed...
*thanks GOD and promises to go to church every sunday
oh yea, I've just started going to cell groups and attending church. I am not religious and still finding my way into this whole christianity thing. the way i pray would be similar to how Elizabeth Gilbert does it: "oh hi God, it's me again! so today has been a shitty day.. eh are you actually there?" only to have the ceiling stare back at me. So anyways! during my 3rd time attending the cell group, they prayed for me and my career. and the next day i got not one, not two, but THREE job offers! --> all in one day!!! I accepted the one i didn't even apply for. HAHAHA.
Coincidence? the power of Prayers? or the almighty God himself? Well, i'm still looking for the answers so, wish me luck!
oh btw, C and I just booked flights to Japan next year!! The thing that excites C most is the Pachinko building where there are 9 floors of hentai (pervert) stuff. Apparently, if you are willing to model in those dodgy costumes and have your picture paraded on the walls for all the hentai uncles to see, you can get an 30% discount off merchandise - i'm signing mr C up.
oh, and I'm gonna meet up my baobei @ singapore in 2 weeks time! yay! can't wait!
Today i woke up at 1130pm. watched 3 episodes of desperate housewives. Upped levels in Restaurant City, Cityville, monopoly, csi and happy hospital (all facebook games). Had half a chocolate cake (the size of my face)
On days like this, i dread the thought i'll be starting work soon =/
I think God heard me.. because today he gave me a wonderful day :)
Finally met up with my ex colleagues. funny ex colleagues because i couldn't stop laughing the whole day.
We went to a briyani place in bangsar called the Fierce Curry House. The owner of the place was a friendly chap who, seeing a table of 5 laughing girls, asked if we were models. He also misheard us for "sex consultants" instead of "tax consultants". heh.
Today has been quite an eventful day for me. I've did some shopping, facial, socialising, beer. I've been out of the house since daytime.
But once i come home to an empty house, I can feel all my doubts and insecurities coming out again. i've done everything by the book, so why do i still feel depressed? Maybe it may need some time.. maybe i just need new people in my life? i don't know...
- Finally completed my move to Sentul! am in love with my new home!! (will show pictures soon)
- currently in kuching for Chinese New Year with family, but flying off to Singapore to watch Wicked with C tomorrow
- am still unemployed -.-
- found a new hobby!
But first, pictures of ah nong!
kiss ah nong
quack
ah nong being emo (actually just woke up from sleep)
ah nong's pet
Ah nong's pet loves sun-tanning, so it only crawls out during bright sunny days. However, it's extremely shy and hides whenever we open the door to say hi. Haven't found a name for it yet though.
my pet project
Since being unemployed / extremely bored / surfing numerous websites, i've found something to occupy my depressed state, - earrings diy! pretty anot? these are all buttons i found from old tailor shops in kuching! once i laid eyes on them, i screamed "so vintage!!"
ok am gonna go out and shop for more vintage buttons! and dear God, I pray to get a good job soon (need moolah for future travels! and shopping! and other forms of happiness) seriously, i need a job :x
